Thinking about trying again.......

I was sitting in bed last night thinking about this post. I haven't really gotten much sleep since November 7th, so now I try to be creative with my non-sleeping hours.
I have been doing a lot of reading and also a lot of thinking.
Last week DH and I finally had "the talk", we had been avoiding the subject ever since the D&E, except for the times when he got upset with the kids and would just shout at me and say "we're done" and I would break down in tears, we never really discussed trying again.
Now 1 regular cycle from my procedure, and after going through the motions for Christmas, we realized that our family is not complete and that we want to try again.
Nothing will ever replace the little girl that we lost, but I need a way to fill that empty gap in my heart, and I know he feels the same.
So let the fun begin, we're not charting or anything, just doing it the "old fashioned" way, and if it happens, it happens.
I will need all the prayers you can offer during this time, for some sticky dust and for a healthy and successful pregnancy followed by a healthy baby.
I'm a nervous wreck, I feel like a teenager with butterflies in my stomach. I don't think we really "tried" with any of the other kids, so this is kind of new to us! ( 5 pregnancies later, pretty ironic)
Wish us luck! and I will keep you guys posted, if and when it happens I will share from the first minute we know, because what's the use of not celebrating the news right away?
ahhh can't believe I'm doing this again.