This is by far the worst thanksgiving we've had since my grandmother died. I want to take a minute to be thankful for what I have. I am grateful for my family, for my wonderful husband who is just as crushed as I am in this whole ordeal.
I am thankful for my 3 boys, who keep me busy and give me hugs and kisses when I'm down. (They've been working overtime lately).
I am grateful for all my friends. Those online and those in real life who are just around the corner, who are willing to listen and cry along with me, and tell me that "it's not my fault" (love you Tracie).
But this year unlike any other, I am hurting. I can't stop crying, I'm just a mess. I miss my baby girl and the holidays that she will never get to spend with us. I miss her kicks, and waiting for the special day that she will join us.
I know many people have said that she will be waiting for us in heaven, but I'm selfish, I don't want to wait till I die to meet my daughter.
This whole situation has put a big damper on the cheerful smiling person I have always been, and instead of sending cheerful greetings and silly turkey jokes, I just want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep.
So Happy Thanksgiving Everyone, Enjoy your family, and hugs your kids super tight.
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Anna - I so wish I could reach through this computer and give you a HUGE hug. I think of you often and would give anything to take a little of the pain from you onto my own shoulders. I'm so sorry for your loss. {{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}
Happy Thanksgiving. I wish I had the right words to help you with your loss, but there might not even be "right" words.
God Bless you and your family.
I'm so sorry-- I'd love to reach through my computer and give you a hug and reassure you that all of your friends are here for you!
God be with you, your husband and the boys through all of this.
--Mike
At least you can be thankful for what you have, so that is a plus! You're definitely doing better than you think you are. Not for nothing, but it may make you feel better to talk to her. I talk to everyone who has gone all the time. It is very comforting. You can call me crazy, but I really still feel connected. Try it! I love you Anna!!!
Love,
Jess
Anna, I'm thankful for your honesty. And I'm touched by your motherly love for your little girl. I will keep praying for you, and I am still so, so sorry.
Unrelated, positive comment--Your new blog header is so cute.
Hugs Anna!! I wish I could help in some way.
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